I don’t even know where to start, what even is this election anymore? I’ve been busy lately, so I haven’t been following politics as closely as I should. So, when my newsfeed began to fill up with people complaining about the latest thing Donald Trump said and how offensive it was, I didn’t care. I was numb to it all, just assuming that people were making something out of nothing.

This time I was wrong, and I can’t even describe how I feel about this time.

I just read the transcript, so I don’t want anyone telling me I was taking just a few lines out of context. This was actually vulgar, this wasn’t said by some comedian who is paid to be as vulgar as possible for entertainment. No, this was done by a presidential candidate, a grown ass man, talking about sexual assault. It doesn’t matter when it was said, because it was said, and he’s not sorry he said it. He’s just sorry he was caught. Let me break this down for some people who don’t know what I’m talking about. Trump was caught on tape in 2005 bragging about trying to have sex with a married woman and uses vulgar language that suggests he was fine with sexual assault.

So let’s go piece by piece here. First off we having him saying, “I moved on her actually. You know she was down on Palm Beach. I moved on her, and I failed. I’ll admit it. I did try and fuck her, she was married.” No, just no. You are married, she is married, it’s one thing to think about it but you acted on it. I know this isn’t the first time he’s been overheard saying things like this, and I’m sorry I’ve just now finally opened my eyes to see who he really is.

Secondly, Trump is quoted saying the following:”Yeah that’s her with the gold. I better use some Tic Tacs just in case I start kissing her. You know I’m automatically attracted to beautiful… I just start kissing them. It’s like a magnet. Just kiss. I don’t even wait. And when you’re a star they let you do it. You can do anything.”

I understand right now that there’s a lot of talk about what counts as consent and what doesn’t, and I’m one of those people who will still sometimes ask my own girlfriend if it’s okay to kiss her, but I’m positive consent wasn’t obtained here. Consent is everything, period. And then here we go, the third and finally strike out of this entire transcript, when Billy Bush, the person he was talking to said “Whatever you want,” Trump responded with something that was totally out of left field, “Grab them by the pussy. You can do anything.” Just think about that for a second, “grab them by the pussy,” was said by our presidential candidate. That can’t be justified. It’s not “locker room talk,” no locker room I’ve ever been in had someone talk like that, and if they did I’m sure the person would have had some sense knocked into them. This was one thing that I actually just don’t care about how he said it, why he said it, if he actually had done something like this before, or how serious he was. The point is these words left his mouth and all he had to offer was an “I said it, I was wrong, and I apologize.”

No, that’s not going to bail you out this time, I truly don’t believe you understand why you were wrong, or else I think you would have said it. Listen, Donald Trump is perfectly free to speak this way in the United States, just like I’m free to say I disagree with him and anyone who thinks speaking, thinking or acting this way acceptable. Him saying that and actually having support might actually lead to this kind of behavior being seen as acceptable. Sexual assault is serious, getting consent is necessary. This isn’t rocket science, it’s being a decent human being. I was concerned that people may see me as a “SJW” (Social Justice Warrior) or not a real conservative and just write this off. I refuse to stay silent on this a